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God of the Impossible

Today’s USCCB Readings

“Pray about it,” my husband would say in an almost robotic sort of tone. It was his go-to when he had no answer. And my go-to response was a flippant, “Okay!” as my eyes rolled in deep-seated cynicism.

I didn’t want a skeptic’s heart, but I had one. Because when you’ve stared at negative pregnancy tests for nine years of your marriage, I guess you start to doubt. And that’s precisely what happened. I doubted my way through the “it’ll happen when it’s time” comments. I doubted my way through the “miracles occur” pleasantries. I even doubted my way through the Jeremiah 29:11 promise I often read to myself when the ache in my heart got to be too heavy.

Because when it came right down to it, I didn’t believe that God was Who He says. I didn’t believe that He could, or would, perform miracles. Doubt seeped its way into even my most secure defenses.

It’s alarming how easily doubt can undermine your trust, how it can take the rudimentary parts of your faith and turn it into something you no longer recognize.

When I read today’s Gospel, I see that human inclination to doubt so prevalently. Upon the miracle performed, “Some of [the witnesses] said, ‘By the power of Beelzebul, the prince of demons, he drives out demons.’ Others, to test him, asked him for a sign from heaven.” (Luke 11:15-16)

And who can blame them? I mean, healing a deaf person does seem pretty impossible, but finally seeing a positive pregnancy test after nine years of negatives also seemed quite impossible. But our God, He is the God of the impossible, for it is written that “nothing will be impossible for God.” (Luke 1:37)

Believe it, dear sisters, for He makes all things new.

Brittany Calavitta is an enthusiastic advocate for a good book, strong coffee, and a hopeful heart. After battling years of infertility, she and her husband welcomed their first child on September 11, 2016. You can find out more about her here.

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    Abigail
    March 8, 2018 at 6:38 am

    This means so much to me… last night my boyfriend had to play therapist because I was crying hysterically for almost an hour because I have to raise $2,550 for my Holy Lands pilgrimage with FOCUS in a little less than 3 weeks. I felt as though I was nearly at my breaking point and I felt that all hope was lost and I was at the point that I didn’t know how to pray anymore. Blessed is She has been coming out with devotionals every day this week that have been relating to me exactly. Thank you so much for this !

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      Weronika Janczuk
      March 10, 2018 at 7:22 pm

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    Kourtney
    March 8, 2018 at 9:09 am

    I love that our God is a God of miracles, and I’m thankful that he gave you the most precious miracle of life. Accepting my infertility as my vocation has been a “miricle” in that he healed my heart and transformed it to say “yes” to his will -trusting that he is good, his mercy endures, and his plan is more fullfilling than I can imagine, whatever his will may be. I say this for the 1 in 8 who feel disregarded or lost in their infertility, who are still waiting for their miricle. From the preface of Hinds Feet on High Places: “It is God’s will that some of his children should learn this deep union with himself through the perfect flowering of natural human love in marriage. For others it is equally his will that the same perfect union should be learned through the experience of learning to lay down completely this natural and instinctive desire for marriage and parenthood, and accept the circumstances of life which deny them this experience. This instinct for love, so firmly implanted in the human heart, is the supreme way by which we learn to desire and love God himself above all else.” This passage taught me the difference between acceptance and doubt. Although we would welcome a child immediately, our faith is walked out in daily acceptance.

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    Katherine
    March 8, 2018 at 9:54 am

    Hello, I think the scripture reading for Wednesday is still on even though its Thursday. Just wanted to let you know. Thanks <3

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    Kourtney Lynn Bolton
    March 8, 2018 at 1:00 pm

    I love that our God is a God of miracles, and I’m thankful that he gave you the most precious miracle of life. Accepting my infertility as my vocation has been a “miracle” in that he healed my heart and transformed it to say “yes” to his will -trusting that he is good, his mercy endures, and his plan is more fulfilling than I can imagine. I say this for the 1 in 8 who feel disregarded or lost in their infertility, who are still waiting for their miracle. From the preface of Hinds Feet on High Places: “It is God’s will that some of his children should learn this deep union with himself through the perfect flowering of natural human love in marriage. For others it is equally his will that the same perfect union should be learned through the experience of learning to lay down completely this natural and instinctive desire for marriage and parenthood, and accept the circumstances of life which deny then this experience. This instinct for love, so firmly implanted in the human heart, is the supreme way by which we learn to desire and love God himself above all else.”
    This passage taught me the difference between doubt and acceptance. We would welcome a child tomorrow, but our faith is walked out in daily acceptance.

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