Dear sisters in Christ, I sit here frustrated and at a loss for words. Upon reading today’s readings I felt the tension in my neck and shoulders rise, my jaw clenched, my hands paralyzed by anger. It’s not much different from how I felt when I entered the confessional late this summer. I had avoided going out of anger and fear due to the recent revelations of the cancerous scandal infecting our beloved Church. In the quietness of the confessional, white knuckled and clutching onto the kneeler, I figuratively began flipping tables as I expressed how upset I was about clergy who have acted like the unfaithful steward.
“Much will be required of the person entrusted with much, and still more will be demanded of the person entrusted with more” (Luke 12:48).
My confessor pointed to Mary, the mother of God, who looked at the body of Christ, bloody and bruised because of sin. Even in her sorrow she served Him. Were her hands not covered in His precious blood when she held Him close? Mary, who was full of grace, responded accordingly.
What about me? Is my life a generous response to the grace I have been given? I cannot heal the whole Church, but I can respond and bless those who are nearest to me. Do I love well, and hold close the hearts who I come in contact with?
Sisters, join my in praying today’s psalm, which has been a light in the darkness:
“God indeed is my savior;
I am confident and unafraid.
My strength and my courage is the LORD,
and he has been my savior.
With joy you will draw water
at the fountain of salvation” (Isaiah 12:2-3).
How can you love those nearest you, today? Jot down a list.
Jacqueline Skemp is a daughter, sister, wife, and mother who endures living in Minnesota after leaving California for her one true love. You can find out more about her here.