From Tears to Laughter

The lights were dimmed and a love song began to play over the speakers. Holding my breath, I waited for my brother and his new bride to step onto the dance floor for their first dance as husband and wife. As I sat at the table with glittering lights and full champagne glasses, I looked over at my husband and memories flooded my mind as I marveled at how far we’d come—from the lonely, tearful nights as a single woman feeling like God would never answer my prayers to the years Brian was fighting cancer and I cried with fear that my husband would be called back to God too soon.

Then I looked over at my children. I recalled the trouble we had conceiving, the secondary infertility, and the miscarriages we endured . . . all the heartache that came before we were blessed with four beautiful children. Then I glanced over to my mom who, just a year ago, was also fighting cancer. Now She was looking so beautiful about to step onto the dance floor with her newly-married son. I had a hard time holding back tears of gratitude.

That moment at my brother’s wedding hit me once again as I read today’s Psalm response, “Those who sow in tears shall reap rejoicing.” It is easy to rejoice and believe in God’s promises when things are going well, but when we are in the midst of trials and carrying heavy crosses, that is when the true test of faith comes.

It’s during those tough times that I think about Saint Paul’s words in the First Reading, “[We are] perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.” (2 Corinthians 4:9-10) When the cross has been heavy, God has always been there giving me the strength to endure.

I’ll admit that I’m not always the best at believing and trusting, and some prayers and longings of my heart have not been answered as I had hoped. I sometimes struggle to make peace with that, but God is good. He knows that I can be overwhelmed by my emotions. He is patient and gentle with me and knows exactly when I need an extra hug and when I am being stubborn and need a little tough love. He reminds me to have faith that the joyous times will come once again.

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If you are struggling, pour your heart out to God and let Him console you. If you know someone struggling, be their consolation.

Bobbi Rol is a wife, mama and blogger living on the Monterey Bay in CA with her husband, teen daughter, and three rambunctious boys. When she is not dodging light sabers or stepping on Legos, she can be found outside with her family, catching a late night movie, or decorating her planner. You can find out more about her here.


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    Mary Kay Predayna
    July 25, 2018 at 10:46 am

    this is so what I needed to hear today! Thank You!

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      July 25, 2018 at 6:41 pm

      The Holy Spirit is good and gives us just what we need to hear! (I needed this today too.) 🙂

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    July 25, 2018 at 5:07 pm

    Thank you Bobbi, x

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      July 25, 2018 at 6:42 pm

      You’re welcome, Carmel. <3

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    July 25, 2018 at 11:15 pm

    Oh Gosh this is my story.. I am still in the valley. My husband, Mom and Best Friend were all dx with CA last year. An although each are in their own stages of the journey right now, I still struggle every day with the thought of losing them, esp my Husband.
    I will tell you though what has got me through the last year and half was my deeping faith. I have always been faithful, however my love of God has gotten me through many teary nights.

    I will pray for your husband and Mom and their recovery.

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    Carrie Schuessler
    July 26, 2018 at 12:56 pm

    Thank you!!❤️

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    Geraldine Abuel
    July 27, 2018 at 5:11 am

    Hi Bobbi, I can truly relate in today’s post as my life in itself is a living testament of how great God’s love is and He is indeed true to his words and promises..! Am very grateful for everything that’s happening now in me and my son’s life – wish I can share my story too to give hope and serve as inspiration to others too..! Thank u!

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