There are certain events that are permanently seared into my memory—the fall of the World Trade Center, the fall of the stock market, and the fall of my faith in our Church.
I remember when the abuse reports started to roll in. My phone was aglow with each new story and my heart grew weary with each new offense. And for a time, I wanted to rid myself of it all—to turn my back, to walk away, to say goodbye. I wanted to erase my name from this hurting family of believers and diverge on my own journey toward solace and comfort and hope.
And that’s when I thought about the Eucharist and of all the hope It holds. Because even in the deep, dark parts of our hearts, He leads us to the light. And it is the light that should be fought for. It is the light that keeps me in this battle.
Today’s First Reading spoke directly to this warring heart of mine. Because when the people refused to rebuild the house of the Lord, the prophet Haggai responded:
“Is it time for you to dwell in your paneled houses while this house lies in ruins?” (Haggai 1:4)
Sisters, right now our Church is in ruins. But the light, the light is still here. May we find the strength within to fight through the darkness, to hold strong to our convictions, and to find healing in Him—our light, our love, our hope.
Blessed is She wrote a response in fall 2018 to the newest scandal, in case it can give you comfort or direction.
Brittany Calavitta is an enthusiastic advocate for a good book, strong coffee, and a hopeful heart. After battling years of infertility, she and her husband welcomed their first child on September 11, 2016. You can find out more about her here.