Still In Love

“You have lost the love you had at first.” // Revelation 2:4

I have been in professional ministry in the Church for almost thirty years and admit I have worked, labored, and endured a lot for the sake of the Kingdom. I am very protective about the people I minister alongside and scarcely tolerate people who call themselves “apostles” but are impostors (see Revelation 2:2). I need authentic women and men who love the Lord and do everything in their lives out of their love for Him. Most importantly, I need friendships that recognize when I am growing weary and losing the love I had when I first said yes to the Lord. 

Last night, I was blessed to have dinner with women who have been there for me across the miles. I cannot hide anything from them, and they call me out when I'm being a "faith impostor," putting on the "everything is fine" face so no one detects vulnerability in my soul. They do not allow me to listen to even a whisper Satan mutters to my mind and heart. They make sure I'm praying, sleeping, adoring, consuming, and in relationship with Christ.

So, when I read in Revelation that the Lord sees my works, labors, and endurance and isn't particularly thrilled, like my girlfriends, I know all He cares about is whether I am in love with Him! 

This idea of still being in love with the Lord is something I am incredibly protective of, and I have equally protective friends for whom I praise the Lord. We all know that unless we spend time with Christ, listen to Him in His Word, and receive Him in the Eucharist, our love story will end faster than a song Taylor Swift writes after a relationship ends. My sisters ensure I spend time with Him, listen to Him in His Word, and receive Him Body, Blood, Soul, and Divinity in the Eucharist. 

Maybe my love isn't the first kiss, honeymoon or early dating period, Disneyland fireworks love I once had. But it is the same love that has grown into a quiet night gazing into His eyes in Adoration and with that, I am satisfied.