Who is there like you, the God who removes guilt and pardons sin for the remnant of his inheritance; Who does not persist in anger forever, but delights rather in clemency. // Micah 7:18
The evening glow from the sun reflected throughout my creaky hallway as water droplets dripped down my freshly washed but wet hair. Steadily walking into my pink-cotton candy bedroom, I switched on the lights and grabbed from my bookshelf a little purple journal with gold polka dots. Now sitting at my desk, I vigorously began to write my apology.
My apology to the Father.
Just the previous evening, I had experienced my own reconversion. After putting off the Father’s invitation to come back into His arms, I finally said yes.
I wouldn’t describe the moment as anything dramatic or overwhelming, but it was unforgettable. I felt wholeheartedly free from what was pulling me away from Him, but I assumed that His mercy upon me was nonexistent.
I poured my heart into an apology letter. I went to Confession. Yet I still felt numb and unforgiven.
In today’s first reading, we hear, “Who is there like you, the God who removes guilt and pardons sin for the remnant of his inheritance; Who does not persist in anger forever, but delights rather in clemency” (Micah 7:18).
Doubting His forgiveness and love left a huge burden on my heart.
Sister, your Heavenly Father has a deep yearning to cleanse the stained parts of your heart. He desires intimacy and gently invites you to dwell and receive the gift of His mercy. His desire for your repentance isn’t out of hate or anguish, but out of deep, pure, and real love for you.
Knowing His forgiveness has been a journey for me. It’s not something that clicked right away, but happened the more I spent time with Him, the more I got to know His voice, heart, and outward affection toward me as His daughter.
His mercy became easier to grasp when you began to know Who He truly is and how He truly sees you.
Spend time with Him and listen to His voice.
Dear Jesus, we love You. Help us to know Your heart, so that we may let You farther into ours. Thank You for Your gift of Your mercy. Amen.
Know His forgiveness. // Bella RolClick to tweet
Bella Rol is a college student from Monterey, CA and she’s passionate about finding the Lord in the simple things. She was a contributing author to New Wine and GIFT: Eucharistic Study for Teens. In her free time, Bella can be found laughing with her three brothers, enjoying a foamy latte, journaling, doodling, contemplating Jesus in the Eucharist, taking a long walk, or asking Saint Joseph for his intercession.
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