Trusting for the Calm

The Lord will not abandon his people. // Psalm 94:14

I could feel the tears starting to burn my eyes and the emotion bubbling inside me. These were going to be hot, angry tears, and I didn’t want to scare my kids, so I went into my bedroom and locked the door. I grabbed my pillow and screamed until my throat was hoarse.

I couldn’t believe that my mom’s cancer had returned with a vengeance. Her body was not responding to treatments, and we had to face the fact that we were going to lose her. I broke down. I was done with being strong in my faith.

Like the Psalmist today, I cried out in anger, “Why God? Why have you abandoned us? You are the God of healing . . . of mercy . . . of miracles. So why have you turned a deaf ear on our pleas?”

I waited for an answer or for peace to calm me down, but there was nothing. I had to decide if I would believe God and His word not only when things were going well, but even when my world was shattered. I sighed. Even though I didn’t feel anything, I chose to believe and trust that God would see us through this.

It wasn’t until months later that I had that epiphany moment and God poured out a flood of grace into my heart. It was a life moment that deepened my relationship with God, but the days, weeks, and months prior, I was just walking with blind faith repeating, “I don’t get it, but I trust in You.”

We all have those moments when our world is shattered—health fails, a relationship ends, a job is lost, or a loved one dies. Sometimes all we can do is repeat, “The Lord will not abandon His people” (Psalm 94:14) and trust that even though we may not get it now, God will never leave us. He will carry us, strengthen us, and give us the grace to endure another day until our hearts are healed and we find joy once again.

God will never leave us. // Bobbi RolClick to tweet

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