The salvation of the just is from the LORD; he is their refuge in time of distress. // Psalm 37:39-40
Tears of betrayal taste different. This is just conjecture, of course, but it seems as though their elevated acidity highlights the emotional burn.
In today’s Gospel, Jesus addresses the pain of betrayal, acknowledging that He sends His disciples out like sheep among wolves (see Matthew 10:16-23). He is not unaware or disinterested in the heartbreak that comes with being blamed for your beliefs.
Being attacked for your convictions by a rando on the Internet hits differently than being attacked for your beliefs by a family member. The corruption-at-large in society is easier to stomach than the false accusations and misunderstandings of people you hold dear. Being “handed over by your brother” who is a Christian is more painful than being handed over by a stranger whose face discloses a twister of the soul.
The breaking of blissful bonds threaten to bend us until we break.
No, being a sheep among wolves does not diminish distress. What propels us forward is this promise: “I am God, the God of your father. Do not be afraid . . . ” (Genesis 46:3). We have hope because, in the midst of distressing wolves, we have a “refuge in time of distress” (Psalm 27:40). We are confident because “you will be given at that moment what you are to say.
For it will not be you who speak but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you” (Matthew 10:20).
Even though we are sheep among wolves, we are not alone. We are seen, protected, healed, and provided for. We can be at peace in the midst of pain because we are not left vulnerable to the elements of emotional turmoil. God is our refuge. God is our salvation. God is the One Who invites us to endure and He is the One Who makes our endurance possible.
How are you feeling like a sheep among wolves in your life right now? Have you endured ongoing “handing over” by family or friends? Offer your tears of betrayal to Jesus, Who promised to provide for you in these exact moments. And rest in Him, Who is your Refuge.