It was the longest five minutes ever. I paced the hall, nearly wearing a hole in the carpet. My stomach turned; whether from nerves or something more, Iād soon find out. Finally, a shrill ringing filled the silence. The timer propelled me to the bathroom, where I sucked in a breath and reached for the test.
There was a time when the slim white stick meant a simple yes or no. I was no longer so naĆÆve; Iād learned it could also mean āmaybe,ā with the potential to break my world apart. Memories, uninvited, crowded in: twice, in the past six months, a similar test had declared the affirmative: ānew life!ā Yet twice, in the same six months, we were folded in two not while welcoming life, but in grieving our childrenās death. An emergency surgery, doctorās words warning of potential infertility left me numbly shattered, fighting through the darkness. My heart whispered a barely-coherent prayer to our family patron: Please, Saint Jude. Pray we can have at least one more?
And suddenly there I was, back in the bathroom, tenuously reaching for the test.
āYes!ā It shouted.
āMaybe,ā I whispered.
But appointment after appointment, all was well. It wasnāt until my third trimester that I made the connection: my due date, October 28, was Saint Judeās feast day. I smiled innocently, never guessing that our beautiful son would actually make his arrival on that very date.
Now, every year on this Feast of Saints Simon and Jude, I tell my birthday boy the story of our Saint Jude Miracleāthe story of his life.
But the irony of it all? When he was born, I thought it more a lovely little coincidence than anything else. It took hindsight and a deepening relationship with Jesus to truly recognize our absolutely astounding miracle straight from Heaven.
Maybe you, like me, tend to miss miracles. Maybe youāve read todayās Gospel with skepticism, believing miracles are confined to history, or only true for others. But friends, our God is still very much in the business of miracles. From the forgotten miracles of every breath we breathe to the everyday providence by which He sustains us, Our Lordāindeed all of Heavenāis listening with love. Our friends the Saints, and above all our Passion-ridden Savior, accompany us through every heartache, trial and consolation of this lifeācontinually making miracles happen along the way.
Look closely: what miracles has God brought about in your life? Write them down or maybe share them with someone today, and thank God for His incredible goodness.
Megan Hjelmstad is a wife and mom 24/7 and an Army Reservist in her āspareā time. Sheās a bibliophile, tea drinker, sleep lover, and avid admirer of Coloradoās great outdoors. When the writing bug hits, you can find out more about her here.
