Your Brokenness Doesn't Scare Him

She fell down before Jesus and told him the whole truth. // Mark 5:33

I sat there in front of the monstrance in the deserted adoration chapel feeling empty, worn out, and tired. As a struggling perfectionist, I was tired of never quite feeling like I could be enough. I felt worn out each time I saw my brokenness and all the ways I perceived myself to be failing. Ultimately, I felt as though I had run out of the Lord’s grace and had to just run on empty because there was nothing else to do.

As someone who is quite passionate about people knowing they are loved, I had spent a lot of my life speaking of Jesus’ love to those around me. But somehow, at that moment, I didn't have what it took to speak it to myself. So there I sat in front of Jesus, feeling like I had nothing to offer. Deciding there was nothing else to do, I chose to pour my empty heart out.

I told Him the truth. I let Him into the ache of constantly feeling the need to be perfect. I spoke to Him about how I felt so empty. I cried tears that I had held back for years. And then, I felt Him speak truth to my heart: Your brokenness doesn’t scare Me, so why do you let it scare you?

I realized that I had spent so much time running away from my brokenness, rather than running with it toward Jesus. In reality, that’s all I really needed to take with me.

Sister, your brokenness is a place to let the Lord encounter you. He desires to hear the truth from your lips, let you touch even just the threads of His clothes, and most of all, heal the brokenness and wounds that afflict you. Healing happens when we let Christ into our fragmented and weak hearts and tell Him the whole truth.

Your brokenness doesn’t scare Him, so don’t let it scare you. Fall down before Jesus and tell Him the whole truth.

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