I slumped into the orange and gray subway seat, too tired to care about the grime permanently encrusted on the surface. I'm no stranger to emotional breakdowns on the A train -- I carry a pair of sunglasses in my tote for the dedicated purpose of hiding crying jags on public transportation. But it felt like the last piece of my heart had finally snapped, and there was nothing left to cry about. It wasn't just a bad day or month. It was a season that started as soon as my hair dried from the waters of baptism on Easter 2011. Can we be real? It's only beginning to change now, 3.5 years later. I'd like to say that there was a miracle that made everything better. Spoiler: there wasn't. It took -- is taking -- work. Relationships had to be severed. Habits destroyed. I had to learn to see myself with the mind of Christ and not my own understanding. I had to encounter Grace in the sacraments, even when I could pray "I believe, help my unbelief." But gradually, even though some situations stayed the same, I began to feel hope. You may not feel that faithfulness and love or grace right now. You may not feel loved or lovable, or think that there will ever be a day that feels better than this day right now. The Lord who "raises up all who are bowed down" might seem like a myth. That is okay. It is so, so okay to admit that it is hard. But the beauty of grace is that it doesn't depend on us recognizing it to exist. Something that helps me recognize His faithfulness and begin seeing myself with the mind of Christ is that old party game, two truths and a lie. I write down the lie first. Last week's? I am unwanted. Then I take the lie to prayer, and I ask for truth to be revealed in the dark places. Sometimes the lies don't want to go easily. They, much like the demons in today's Gospel, scream "What have you to do with us, Jesus of Nazareth? Have you come to destroy us?" Another spoiler: Yes. He did. Is there a lie you can begin exchanging for truth? How can we view ourselves with the mind of Christ and recognize His faithfulness? Kassie Rutherford is a dancer, fiction writer and editor from Texas currently relocating from LA to NYC. You can find out more about her here.

    "When I came to you..." I am here. We are here. We are here to dive into the Word together, as a community of believers, as a community of mothers, as a community of wives, single women, daughters, sisters, sinners, thieves. "I came to you in weakness and fear and much trembling," With fear and much trembling, we launch Blessed Is She today. In weakness and fear, I give you all of me in this project, in this daily devotions to the Word of God. We give you ourselves and nothing less to be vulnerable and to grow together. Every single day. "so that your faith might rest not on human wisdom but on the power of God." It is not us, the writers or the preachers or the ministers standing at the pulpit. It is the power of God that we rest our faith on. Open up your bible, sister. Read along with us. We come to you as women who needed the gentle push to open up the Word and let it enter into our lives daily. And we want you to come along for the ride. Today begins day 1 of Blessed Is She's daily devotions. We will look at the daily readings and write reflections on them that apply to our lives. It will be soothing to our souls to sit and reflect on what the Lord is trying to speak to us through His beautiful Word. It will be essential for our growth as Christian women to continue to grow in Him as opposed to remaining stagnant. Open up your bible, sister. And I'll join you. Let's do this. photo credit Jenna Guizar is the wife to an amazing man and mother to three beautiful little girls. You can find out more about her here.