Fear, shame, powerlessness, and hopelessness. For years, these were the four walls that surrounded me, with a roof of isolation and a floor of unworthiness. That was the space I had built for myself with my sin. Over time, the walls grew thicker and darkness more intense.
Occasionally, I would find a door or window and crack it open to the grace of the Sacraments. At those moments, I could see I was living in a room of lies. I would step out into the light and breathe the air of freedom. After a while, though, my weakness, pride, kept me from journeying too far out into the light of truth. I had built that room; it was mine. I wanted to stay; I would fall back into the darkness of my sin, shutting the door against the light.
There I stayed, living trapped in the cycle. I knew the light was just outside and experienced it for a time, but felt too weak to leave the comfort I found in the darkness of slavery to step fully into the light of grace.
I yearned for and desired freedom, but felt powerless to stay in it. Eventually, the Holy Spirit broke into that place of desire and shined His light on my true identity, not a slave to sin and darkness, but a beloved daughter of the Father, made for the freedom of obedience to Christ (see Romans 6:17).
The power of His light shattered the lies, the walls, and I was no longer bound by the chains of sin. I was yoked to the sweet burden of Christ; to the truth of what it means to live in the freedom of baptism where “[s]in is not to have any power over you” and “[f]reed from sin you have become slaves of righteousness” (Romans 6:14, 18).
Sister, where are you believing lies about your identity today? What are the chains holding you in the darkness and lies of sin? Surrender to the One Who desires your freedom in the light!
Live in the freedom of baptism. // Sister Maria FatimaClick to tweet