He Wants Me and I Want Him

The familiar feel of the Host was cool on my tongue. Entering me physically and spiritually, I was completely filled with His love for me. Tears filled my eyes as I clung to the moment of sacramental communion with Our Lord. I had not received the Eucharist in weeks and did not know how many more days would pass before I would receive Him again.

In that moment when I received the Eucharist after going to Confession, I had a sense that the grace of God would not go empty nor run dry before rain falls again on the Earth. He was with me before this special grace of being able to receive Him and He would remain with me.

For a period of time during these challenging days, the availability of the Sacraments has run dry in all the land, and we all experienced the same lack. But the Lord has still provided for us. He is still with us while we wait to be sacramentally close to Him again.

I have often taken for granted the availability of daily Mass and frequent Confessions to the point that I limited God’s grace in my life. I was like salt that had lost its flavor going through the motions while living the Catholic life. I still was salt, but I did not have the flavor of one full of zeal for the Lord.

I did not relish the gift of frequent reception of Holy Communion. I took advantage of the availability of Confession to sin comfortably and plan my next Confession time.

Yet, this sacramental drought has shown me that God wants the grace of the Sacraments I have already received to do more in life.

He wants me to tap into the graces of my Baptism, Confirmation, Marriage, and to embrace Him in spiritual communion, allowing grace to help me avoid the habitually confessed sins of my last Confession. I need the Sacraments more than ever, and the grace of them is not running dry nor going empty.

He is with me more because I long for Him.

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Susanna Spencer holds a master's in Theology from the Franciscan University of Steubenville and is the Devotions Editor for Blessed is She. She is a freelance writer and editor and a teacher. She lives with her philosopher husband, three teen daughters, one pre-teen son, and a miracle baby girl in Saint Paul, Minnesota. She loves reading theology and novels, attending beautiful liturgies, cooking delicious food, and casually following baseball. She is the author of the Gospel Studies including Seek His Kingdom: A Meditation on Matthew , Listen to Him: A Meditation on Mark, Preach in His Name: A Meditation on Luke, and Abide in His Love: A Meditation on John. She was the contributing author and editor for our children’s devotional prayer book, Rise Up. She was the Theological Editor of the Blessed Conversations Studies. Find out more about her here.