My Blind Hindsight

A couple of months ago, I visited a loved one in her new home. She showed me some new decorations and spoke of what she wanted to do with a room. I followed her around and marveled at what I was seeing. You see, only a year and half before, I was not sure that this person was going to survive. I marveled at this person standing in front of me—vibrant, healthy, and healing.

After her struggles with severe physical and emotional health problems, now I was seeing her on the other side of the tunnel.

My prayers had been answered! But why did it take me so long to realize the mercy of God? Why did I rage and question His plan when things were taking “too long” or not going as I hoped?

As I drove home from our visit, I reflected on all those moments I questioned God’s mercy.

The Psalm for today urges us to trust in His mercy, but have I? (See Psalm 52:10.) I questioned my heart, my intentions, and my faith. I invited God into that moment while wondering if I am someone who is only faithful when things are going my way. Am I only grateful for the good while I curse at the crosses set on my shoulders?

I want to be faithful in every moment—the good, the bad, the mundane. I want to trust God’s timing in all situations. I want to hope in His mercy. 

I want to be so hopeful and faithful that I bring everything to His feet, knowing He does great things. Instead of demanding a specific outcome, I want to put everything into His hands and say, Thy will be done! I am grateful for every moment and I trust in Your mercy forever. Instead of looking at everything in hindsight saying, Yup God answered that prayer, I want to invite Him into every moment of every day and ask Him pour His mercy upon me.

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Do you pray any parts of the Liturgy of the Hours? This ancient prayer sequence offers us the chance to invite God into our hearts up to five times a day.

Dr. Samantha Aguinaldo-Wetterholm is a wife to Paul, mom to three little ones, and practices dentistry at a public health community center for low income families in the Bay Area, California. She (unashamedly) thinks ice cream is its own food group, loves anything Harry Potter, does not leave the house without wearing sparkly earrings, and is an enthusiastic proponent of the Oxford comma. She is a contributing author to our children’s devotional prayer book, Rise Up. Find out more about her here.


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    September 4, 2019 at 10:39 am

    I am carrying a tremendous cross right now and have really been questioning God’s mercy, wondering how he could possibly do this to me! I really needed to read this today. His will, not mine. Thank you.

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    September 5, 2019 at 12:35 am

    In the past when the readings and the devotion have hit home, I have never felt compelled to write a reply. Tonight, I do! The Lord used this writing so much. It was just what I needed & when I needed it. I still struggle a lot with putting all my hope in him and being faithful in every moment, but the Lord is inspiring me to keep trying!! Thank you again and praise God. He is faithful even when I am not.

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    September 11, 2019 at 2:47 pm

    I loved this one but I am having trouble finding psalm 52:10. Is it another verse you meant to type?

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