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God’s Perpetual Comforting Presence

My mind was numb as I exited the hospital parking lot. This was it. We had reached my mom’s final days. The doctor had told us we’d have one more year with her, but we barely had made it to six months, and now I was days away from saying goodbye forever.

I drove my car back to my parents’ house for a family shift change and the song “King of My Heart” came on the radio. As the vocalist sang to God the Father, “You are good, you’re good, oh . . .” I burst into tears. A part of me felt utterly broken and defeated by this heinous cancer that was stealing my mom from us, but the other part of me clung to the Father.

The lyrics continued, “You’re never going to let, You’re never going to let me down.” I knew deep in my heart that despite the pain and the sorrow that was coursing through me, God would not let me down and He’d pull me through. I whispered, “God, in the joy and the sorrow, You are good.”

It was only by the grace of God and by the prayers of countless family and friends that I was able to surrender to the will of God at that moment. Almost a year later, the pain is still there. It didn’t magically go away—even now, I had to stop typing this as fresh sorrow and sobs washed over me.

However, as I dried my tears, I recalled today’s Psalm: “The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want . . . . Even though I walk in the dark valley I fear no evil; for you are at my side with your rod and your staff that give me courage” (Psalm 23).

As Catholic Christians, we’re not promised a life without pain, and the holidays can be a bittersweet time. This Advent, we can take comfort that the Savior will never leave us. In those moments when we’re grieving or struggling, God is there to console and strengthen us to live another day bravely for Him.

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Bobbi Rol is a wife, mama and blogger living on the Monterey Bay in CA with her husband, teen daughter, and three rambunctious boys. When she is not dodging light sabers or stepping on Legos, she can be found outside with her family, catching a late night movie, or decorating her planner. She is a contributing author to our children’s devotional prayer book, Rise Up. You can find out more about her here.

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    Maureen Heroux
    December 4, 2019 at 8:13 am

    Thank you! This hit me hard today, as I just recently said goodbye to my mom due to a very short battle with aggressive cancer.

    It is sometimes so hard to remember and believe that Our Lord will never leave us.

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    Mary R.
    December 4, 2019 at 10:07 pm

    I’m so sorry that you lost your mom. I walked a similar path when my MIL died in May 2018 from aggressive colon cancer. Losing a mother or mother figure is such a painful grief! Thank you for sharing so openly.

    One song that was a companion to me during the awful first year without my MIL was Audrey Assad’s ‘Drawn to You’. Thought I would share in case it helps anyone else. ♥️

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    Vicki Yrazabal
    December 5, 2019 at 10:23 am

    I lost my dad January 10, 2017. I know that was nearly three years to the day, but I still miss him horribly. Some days I just collapse under the weight of the loss. I 62 on Monday, December 9 so I know a little something about loss. The thought of losing my 86 year old mother is more than I can bear. I hope and pray for the strength to get me through the eventuality of the loss of my mother. She survived breast cancer in 1985. I am so thankful for that. Prayers and blessings to everyone who suffers the pain and suffering from a parental loss.

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