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Giving From Your Deepest Place

I am the rich man, having more than I could ever possibly need.

What a help to the temple I am, because I have so much money, and I can give so much, I have thought proudly so many times in my life, whether it be about money, or time, or talents.

I don’t have much to worry about. I am safe. I can give only a portion and still be secure, still be seen as generous.

Lord, I’ve given you so much!

No, I hear Him say back to me, I need you to give me your entire livelihood. I need the surplus you keep hidden away. I need the pieces you’re not willing to part with.

He knows. He knows there is more to be given away.

Where is my surplus? Do I offer some of myself because I have the assurance I will still be safe, secure?

Wanting to stay safe, I wait for the other shoe to drop. I live on edge, anxious about when I will lose out on the Lord and His abundance. I am walking around wondering when my children will be taken from me, when my husband will be gone, when I will lose everything I’ve worked hard to create here in my little bubble of a life.

This is what I am holding on to, for dear life.

I refuse to give this away to the Lord. I refuse to give away my anxieties for what’s to come in life. I refuse to offer up my children and the future He has in mind for them. I refuse to give up my fear of rejection, my fear of failure, my fear of the future.

I am so far from being the woman who comes to the treasury giving everything. Sitting here in my fear, I only give away my time when it’s convenient for me; I only give away my money when I think I have excess; I only give away pieces of my life while I cling tightly to the rest.

I am the wealthy, giving from a surplus.

We all are, in one way or another. We are all holding on to something we refuse to give away to the Lord. He says, “She, from her poverty, has offered her whole livelihood.” (Luke 21:4)

Let us join her today. Give it all to Him and trust, sisters.

Which part of your livelihood are you afraid to let go of? Which anxiety are you afraid to turn to Him? Give from deep inside, sisters.

Jenna Guizar is the wife to an amazing man and mother to three beautiful little girls. You can find out more about her here.

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    Katie Devine
    November 27, 2017 at 6:27 am

    Gosh, I could have written this reflection (but not so beautifully). I often, even always, live in fear of the cross. It’s those heaviest ones (loss of kids/husband, accidents, serious illness) that I obsess over. I cling to my anxiety instead of handing it over to the Lord. I pray that the cup passes my family, but fail to add the “but Your will be done.” Thank you Jenna for this reflection and the reminder to “give it all to Him and trust.”

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    Angela McNabb
    November 27, 2017 at 11:47 am

    Myisery and sadness is what I hold onto. I’ve suffered so much in my life (but still not like others have) and I too am afraid for the other shoe to drop. I’m so afraid of being happy, of accepting myself and accepting that God loves me in who I am. I thank you ladies so greatly for doing what you do. You help me grow in christ so much

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    Stacy Miller
    November 27, 2017 at 3:00 pm

    Excellent reflection, Jenna. So happy I’ve discovered Blessed is She. Letting go and giving God control of our lives is so challenging but so rewarding. It takes tremendous work for me, and an intensive focus on daily prayer. But the more I let go, the happier and more fulfilled I am with where my life takes me. God knows what’s best for us, and he will lead us to incredible experiences of love, we just have to say “yes.”

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    Amanda M Missildine
    November 27, 2017 at 3:58 pm

    Amen, sister.

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    Michele Ryan
    November 28, 2017 at 2:56 am

    The timing of this is impeccable! Grappling with stress and fear and anxiety so much lately and it is effecting my health. Dealing with some serious insomnia tonight and seeking the rest I need but stuglling to let go and give it to the Lord. Your words are my thoughts. Thank you.

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