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Be a Little Wild

Today is my thirty-fifth birthday. Today I am squarely in my mid-thirties, eyeing the later thirties, reminiscing over the early thirties. I can say things like, “I mean, over twenty-five years ago I babysat and made $5 an hour.” I can scrutinize my scalp in the morning mirror and yelp as I find gray hair upon gray hair. But mostly what I’ve looked forward to on this birthday is being more spirited, more unleashed, more the woman God is calling me to be, in part because I share a birthday with my eldest girl (six today!). I feel she deserves to have a mama who’s emboldened to go for it.

The wind blows where it wills, and you can hear the sound it makes, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes; so it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit.” (John 3:8) This wildness, this renewal, this beautiful verse is the theme behind our retreats this year, the “Wild” Blessed is She Retreat. And if I’m lucky enough to see you at the Minnesota retreat in August, where I’m heading up the ground team, we can pray over this verse together.

I’ve been stuck in a place of not being “enough” to those in my life, not enough for myself: not in shape enough, not talented enough, not rested enough, not patient enough. When I hear Jesus speaking to Nicodemus in today’s Gospel, and Nicodemus not understanding Him despite being a teacher, part of me wants to give up. Lord, I don’t get it all, either. I’m not smart enough, either. 

Maybe for my birthday I can ask Our Lord to just set aside my stack of all the reasons I’m held back from living out His beautiful plan for me, ups and downs, ins and outs, whatever it involves. Maybe I can be reborn of the Spirit, be a little wild, believe I’m enough.

Are you looking for renewal, rebirth? Start with the Sacrament of Reconciliation, then get on over to Mass and Adoration. Refresh your spirits with a talk with your priest or spiritual advisor. The Lord’s waiting for you to come to Him for renewal. Share your heart with Him today.

Nell O’Leary is a recovering lawyer turned blogger, speaker, and sewer of baby goods while tending to her husband and four kiddos in the great city of Saint Paul, Minnesota. She serves as Managing Editor for Blessed is She and can down a iced chai tea latte in no time flat. Find out more about her here.

6 Comments

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    Stella
    April 10, 2018 at 8:35 am

    Happy Birthday Nell, to you and your daughter! I hope this year brings you Wild blessings. You are enough. We are enough as we are. We are the Beloved daughters of God. That is what I now know because of Blessed Is She. And I am so grateful for that gift!! Xoxo, Stella

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    Maria
    April 10, 2018 at 9:52 am

    Wishing you and your daughter the happiest of birthdays!

    I think as women, we can all relate in one way or another to the feeling of not being enough. It can be a double edged sword, one the one hand, it means we’re conscious of ourselves and want to make as good of an impact on the world and the people around us. In this light, it can be a good thing. On the other hand, we are selling ourselves short, not seeing the beauty and amazeness that Our Heavenly Father sees in us. Maybe, it’s good to try and strike a balance on the thin edge of the sword. It’s challenging, it takes commitment and courage to stand on the swords edge. It’s risky too, but in life, it’s being out of our comfort zones is where we make the most difference and the most impact on the truly worthwhile causes.

    Alleluia Jn 3:14-15

    Alleluia, alleluia.
    The Son of Man must be lifted up,
    so that everyone who believes in him
    may have eternal life.
    Alleluia, alleluia.

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    Nicole
    April 10, 2018 at 9:56 am

    Happy birthday! I loved this! It really resonated with me. Enjoy your special day!

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    Kay
    April 10, 2018 at 10:37 am

    Happy birthday! Thank you for your reflection. God is so amazing. I was having the same questions in my head of, “am I enough?” and I am inspired by your birthday prayer to set aside the stack of reasons and be reborn. This message has come up A LOT in the last 3.5 hours that I’ve been awake, so there must be something there God is whispering.

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    Catherine McDonald
    April 10, 2018 at 10:58 am

    Happy birthday to you and your little girl it’s also my
    Birthday I’m 61 today and feeling very blessed !
    I really like reading Blessed is she emails their uplifting and faith filled keep up the good work God bless. Catherine

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    Susana
    April 10, 2018 at 11:38 am

    Happy birthday to both! Bless your heart and I pray God keeps flourishing within you to touch our hearts. ❤️

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