Three years ago, I started making my way back to the Church after an extremely worldly life. I had been living in China for at least three years at that point, and being out of my grandmother’s safe haven, I had spiraled out of control.
One night, I went to bed and had a life-changing dream. I knew it all had to stop. Fornication, sugar-daddies, wild parties, and more. So I decided to return to the Lord, start fresh. I expected it to be all rosy, and for a moment it really was. Then I went for a retreat and picked one paper during an activity and the word on that paper turned my life upside down. Trust.
What is Radical Trust?
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and on your own intelligence rely not. // Proverbs 3:5
A simple, yet loaded line. Trust requires a solid relationship and a relationship requires interest, but radical trust requires total surrender and abandonment to the will of God.
Radical trust will have you looking and acting like a crazy person. And that is the point we all need to reach. The point where we believe beyond a shadow of reasonable doubt that “God will provide a way out of my _____ (marital problems, financial meltdown, falling grades, tumultuous relationships, childlessness, problems with children, loneliness, etc.) because of His promise in Jeremiah 20:11.”
The Father will provide a way out because He cares for you and everything that concerns your life (see Luke 12:7, Exodus 3:7-8). Jesus will hold your hand through it all because He understands how you feel and wants you to be in perfect peace. The Holy Spirit will inspire you with ideas and the strength to do what you need to.
Beloved, God is interested in you and everything about you.
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Are You Interested in God?
But, are you interested in God? Not just His blessings but God Himself. Are you interested in what God wants for you, and all that He has in store for you and all that interests you?
It is only possible to trust when we are certain of Whom we are working with. Trust is a fruit of a relationship and developing or strengthening that relationship is what we should focus on. Effort to grow that relationship is all God asks of us because He will work something out. Even if His will is contrary to what we hope and yearn for in that moment.
Truthfully, at times, God’s will is painful. Very painful. And it is alright to feel that pain and cry it all out.
Thankfully, God’s way is perfect (Psalm 18:31), marvelous (Psalm 40:6), and pregnant with hope (Jeremiah 29:11). You can confidently abandon yourself in God’s loving will for you because it is what you need.
Today, it might not seem to be what you want but in future you will realize it was what you needed, even if it is not on this side of Heaven.
You can radically trust God and confidently do all that the Holy Spirit is calling you to do. And you can confidently surrender and abandon yourself to God’s will (whatever it looks like today) because it will lead you to Heaven.
Written by Nyasha Masuku.